Do you really wanna go back in time? Why does the past always seem better? I mean it never was! I remember flashes from the past when I told myself " I'll remember this in future and it would be much better". At that time I was suffering issues that no longer exist and was after things that I reached now, but somehow I lost interest in it, in everything. Curiosity is part of who we are, I know. It's probably one of the reasons humans are so scientifically advanced. The "Always look for the newer!" Dilemma. For me, I lost interest in the whole "chasing" thing, knowing that when I get there, I will not be satisfied still. I'll be lured by some else. It feels like a dog playing fetch with trillion balls bouncing around. That's a nightmare if you know what I mean. Satisfaction vs. Curiosity. Looks like I've lost both.
I watched a video once expressing human behavior, it was
Trigger > Act > reward
You feel hungry (trigger)
You eat (act)
You feel good (reward)
Makes sense to me, but I can't feel the rewarding chemicals in there. Instead if feel " I thought it would be cooler" " That's it? That's all?" " wasn't worth it at all!". I'm not trying to understand the world, just trying to see how my brain function, or probably malfunction.
I watched a video once expressing human behavior, it was
Trigger > Act > reward
You feel hungry (trigger)
You eat (act)
You feel good (reward)
Makes sense to me, but I can't feel the rewarding chemicals in there. Instead if feel " I thought it would be cooler" " That's it? That's all?" " wasn't worth it at all!". I'm not trying to understand the world, just trying to see how my brain function, or probably malfunction.
