Get out!

Your safe zone is no longer safe. Nothing is the same anymore; nothing but you! Rules are constantly changing. If you risk predicting them, you might fail, but sticking where you're mentally are only guarantees losing. You got nothing to lose but the opportunity. Can't you even hold on to this?
You say you moved on, but you didn't. Everything is in that dark deep corner in your mind? You tend to go there! You tend to be there. It feels strange, it feels like you're obsessed with collecting falls; just to take every misstep, head to this scary place and add to the collection. What's wrong with you? Why are you doing this to yourself? You don't do this when you succeed, do you?

There's an infestation in my mind's imagination. I hope they choke on smoke cause I'm smoking them out the basement

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Close-minded

It's so sad that a person can't escape his eyes, his vision, his perspective of what is and what isn't. Can't overcome his mind. It's a nonsense, living with a conception that things are what we see.
Fear of the unknown might have helped us survive, of course, it kept us safe in this dungeon; safe as a boat onshore. Minimized the risks of wasting anything regardless of its value. You only do what you think is going to work, ignore all the unlimited possibilities of the ways unwalked. Think in the domain. Do what they all doing, stick to the group; that is where the odds are high. Keep going to the point where you're no longer you, to the point where you're just a reflection. A programming code looping, but guaranteed to never crash. While(Alive = True); Do yesterday.