You've changed!

Who? Me? Oh, yes; I've... I've changed. I'm no longer worrying of what you are thinking; I'm no longer trying to render everything I do in other's minds to see if it's okay for ME to do. I'm no longer trying to simulate their brains, follow their standards, or even think if they will like this that I'm writing. Indeed I've changed, huh? I'm no longer waiting until no one is looking. I just do things now! Amazing, isn't it?
What happened to get to this? I don't know; and honestly, I don't care to find out. Actually, if there's something I'm curious about; it would be how did everyone became so anxious about what everyone is thinking! How did you come up with this mindset; trying to get everyone satisfied? everyone but the one the matter. You!

Why I'm quitting Facebook

* Save my time
recently, I installed a software on my computer that tracks how much time I spend of Facebook, the result came out awful. I happened to spend around 25-35 hours a week on Facebook and that's just on my pc, that's roughly 5 hours a day doing nothing, seeing useless posts and news, laying lazy, wasting my life.

* Privacy issues
I always had concerns on Facebook privacy policy and how they exploit my privacy like it's their right to do so, I'm not really sure about the amount of information they gather and sell of me, but even what I'm doing on Facebook itself, searches, likes, and event and so, Facebook seemed to be using every possibility to make traffic, you go and likes a page, then they post in the timeline that you liked a page, then your friends can comment, then you would reply, well, I don't like that much, I don't also like when Facebook tells others every tiny detail about me, for instance when is the last time I was online, in the past you could have disabled that but now they would see that you were active 3 min ago. you go search for some product on Amazon or souq or any e-shopping platform, you come back to Facebook and find this product advertisement all over the site. Facebook app tracks your location and tells your Facebook friends that you're nearby. well, I know it's a SOCIAL MEDIA platform, but that's more social than I can take.

now, nobody would see that of course cause I won't upload it on Facebook since I already deactivated my account, but that's totally fine.

في انتظار

كل شئ كان يسير علي ما يرام و افضل. استيقظ فلا أري ابعد من المساء. حياة روتينية من الدرجة الأولى. لا أملك شئ فلا اخشي شئ. ليت كل شئ يعود لهذه الحالة. ليت كل شئ يذهب فحسب. لكن لا. الأمر ليس بهذه البساطة ليت شئ لم يكن لي من البداية. الآن عقلي اصبح مرعي لهذه الأفكار. اتلفت علي غير هدى...انتظر وقوعها...
 لا يا صديقي...  لا تستطيع الهروب من هذه الأشياء. لا تركض.. لا تركض... لن يجدي ذلك نفعاً هأهأ. ولا حتي الالتفات ليساعدنا ان رأينا ما نبحث عنه.. أقصد من يبحث عنا اعذرني احيانا افقد حس الاتجاه. لا اعرف حقاً ان كان ذلك ليحدث الغد او الأسبوع المقبل او اليوم. بل هو الأسوأ، لا أدري ان كان ذلك ليحدث أبدا. و لكن ان كان ذلك ليحدث ابدا فأتمني ان يحدث الآن. 

Slowly but Surely

We need a plan, need to get out of here as soon as possible. Slowly but surely, they say. but can you maintain it? Can you deal with all these variables slowly but surely? Would they stand still while you figure them out slowly but surely? Can you not not panic? what if I'm slowly but surely losing it?
 I'm re-architecting everything daily, my thoughts my relations, my opinions and my beliefs. Even my dreams, they are shrinking day after day.
We keep doing this, you know where we're gonna end. We can't trust "We" anymore, I guess we're just one more variable... Oh, sorry remind me, Why should I trust you ?